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Name: Stella Burkhart
I am a single mother of a fabulous three year old boy. Sometimes it feels like we barely stay afloat but I have loved every minute of being his mother. I also like going to see live music. Some of my favorite bands include The Grateful Dead, Phish, Keller Williams, The Recipe, The Allman Brothers Band etc. I try to live simply, be kind, and help others.

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Home » August 2006
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Thoughts of My Brain

I've been down so many roads and I feel like I've been down so long. Is it ever going to be okay? I don't know. Is anyone ever really happy? I doubt it. We all just find momentary experiences that bring us joy, which only lasts as long as we let it. It is inevitable that again we will feel pain. There is so much in this world that is cyclic. Happy then sad, passionate and then mad. Over the last few months I have just felt purely exhausted at the idea of starting over, yet again, in this crazy life. But it's all just beginnings and endings. There is no getting out of it. Whoever invented linear thinking is crazy. We go round and round in a circular kind of way. Finding ourselves in the same situations over and over again, just hoping to be a little wiser this time. When asked how I'm doing my response is generally "adequate". I mean there aren't bombs flying over my head, but I don't live in a state of luxury or epiphany either. I'm just adequate, not good, not bad, not happy, not sad. Adequate at best.

posted by: stellaburkhart at August 20, 2006 18:33 | link | comments (1) |