Life as I now know it

The day to day ins and outs of being a single mom, being a twenty something, and just living.

Thoughts before I Rest My Weary Head

Today, I woke up slightly hungover and sleep deprived and just faced the damn day anyway. I had to call Compaq and announce my computer's premature underwarranty death which took over an hour, call and speak to various other customer service representatives and try to find a computer to use in the mean time. When working with the computer of yesteryear I salvaged from the depths of my closet I was almost at total victory and then just the spacebar didn't work, and it being an old Thinkpad, it wasn't like I could just replace the keyboard. So through much searching and canoodaling I come across my mother's Inspiron and it refuses to jive with my internet connection. Alas, I end up at my parents house, hiding out in my old bedroom that has now become my son's, trying my damdest to avoid the latest family conflict and confusion, attending my first day of online school. All in all, a good day.

posted by: stellaburkhart at June 28, 2006 23:49 | link | comments |

Square One Again

It oftens feels like this is where I'm always at. Even so, I am back to pursuing my educational endeavors, this time going to school online to obtain my bachelor's in paralegal studies. Life distracted me for a while but I'm still convinced that someday with enough work I will earn that degree to put on my wall. I've been trying very hard to focus on myself and my immediate family lately. Anything else has seemed much to overwhelming and exhausting.

I am planning on moving out of town when my lease is up. I plan to still stay in the vacinity but this college town makes it much too easy for me to lose sight of my priorities and fall into my 18-year-old habits of yesteryear. I believe I have acquired a roomate in my friend Jean, but I'm still crossing my fingers. I also have a good feeling about a waitressing job I'm applying for.

AJ's dad moved about two and a half hours away a few weeks ago and things have been kind of bumpy with that adjustment. I have a meeting with my lawyer on Tuesday and hope to have read a few chapters in my Unmarried Parents Rights book by then and have my idea of a parenting plan totally completed so he can just put it into lawyer-speak and get the ball rolling on a visitation schedule and modification of child support.

All and all I've been a real wreck lately, but I seem to be emerging from that wilderness and getting back on track. Still crossing my fingers on that one too. :-)

posted by: stellaburkhart at June 19, 2006 00:47 | link | comments (1) |

I get very irriatated when friends of mine forget that my life does not revolve around them, nor can it revolve around them. I am in a wedding coming up this July. I have not picked my bridesmaid dress up yet because I don't have the money for it. I was unable to talk to the bride for about four days and she flipped out on me, sending me a rude email. She's one of my best friends from high school but since then we've both really gone in different directions. We've both accomplished a lot but it totally different arenas of life. She's a lot more financially responsible than I am, I'm a lot more mature in my relationships than she is and I just look at life different. I'm so annoyed right now that this stupid wedding bullshit has caused yet another dramatic event in my life.

posted by: stellaburkhart at June 01, 2006 14:25 | link | comments |